we love: homemade patterns

 

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secrets I

I've been trying to keep it as a secret— that I am 4, 293 miles away from little heart, my son. it makes me feel sad whenever I try to write about it. it makes it more tangible, more real.

I had to give birth in Manila. I had to leave my less than one month old baby to my family. If you know how it hurts, if you know how I wish to turn the world around. If you know the reasons why we have to go through this you will know how painful it is to put these thing into words. 

Documents. Forms. Records. Strange paperwork. Painful processes wasteful of time. Every little step accomplished I feel a day closer to my son. I feel like I am growing feathers to fly back home and finally kiss his soft cheeks.

I watch him grow everyday from a screen. I hear him giggle and coo in 4 hour time difference.

It feels like years pressed into months. I wish to feel tired arms from carrying, heavy head from sleepless nights. 

It won't be long and we will be the small family of three that we were, for sure all of these will be worth it. Every time together will be precious. Life will be full of love and sweet baby scent again.

we eat: dragon fruit

if you haven't tried them, i'd say you have to. where they are from adds to the wonder too. 

it is a fruit of a cactus.

we love: typo

1 fly fly away travel journal, 2 cardboard stag head better than taxidermy!, 3 bell jar, 

4 pineapple jar (for the cookies i am learning to bake), 5 chalk board paint 

(which promises to turn most surfaces into a chalk board) 6 tassel garden

we visited typo at level 2, deira city center.

we eat: tomatillos

life's little surprises. :) sweet and healthy.

we love: bargain finds at M&S

1 lemon drops, 2 red thai curry sauce that i am so excited to use, 3 black currant juice,

4 almond cookies so good i am finishing the last one as i write this

we visited marks and spencer, deira city center

we eat: SALAD A

we thought we have to name all of our salad combinations, but for shorter and easier references, let us just take the alphabet. we always have ready salad throw-ins at home for easy dinners and breakfasts. we eat really heavy lunches. n never liked raw vegetable salad, unless they are authentic filipino salad recipes which we call ensalada. he doesn't like creamy dressing. it started when i made him a very small portion of tabbouleh, i discovered he can eat my salads only if it is dressed in lemon juice seasoned with lots of salt and pepper. i like ranch, honey mustard, italian and recently avocado and garlic dressing (taylor's brand from carrefour, so good that i have to get the exact recipe).

salad a

romaine lettuce, peaches, pomegranate, parsley and lemon to squeeze in (for n's version), 

avocado and garlic dressing for me, salt and pepper